So, how'z everyone this fine morning? I am okay. Not as funked out. Not so blue. My head is down to a Cat 1 for a change and I am out of hiding and I actually feel like blogging a little. Tho I don't really have all that much to talk about. Go figure. :p Life is boring. My life is really, really boring. The guys have left for their jobs, leaving me and furry ones home alone. Thank you Lord!!! Patrick was off, yesterday and it threw off my entire rhythm. lol
So, yeah. It is morning, I am drinking coffee and plotting
I am still trying to eat right. *sigh* What the fuck is my malfunction, I ask you? (Not literally... You know what I mean.) I do really well, then I do not so well. It all adds up to maintaining my weight. No gain. (Thank God!) But no loss. I mean... I have lost, what? Thirteen pounds since January? Say whaaaaaat? Not exactly what I set out to do, here. I had expected to have nearly another fifty off by this time. And my doctor's appointment is on August second. She will no doubt be pleased that I haven't gained anything but dammit! I am so mad at myself. So pissed off at my weirdness and inability to just stay on track.
I am not binging. I am just eating stupid things, like some chips here, too much popcorn, there. Too much food at a meal. Healthy food still has calories and too many calories is too many calories. I know this. I know it when I do it. I know that I don't want to. I know that it isn't doing me any favours. Some days are diamonds. I do really well, some days. Some days are shit.
I need more diamonds. Less shit.
Yesterday? Diamonds. I need to build on that.
I am so sick of whining about this. I need to just get my head out of my ass and do it.
It wouldn't hurt to get my ass out and walk again, either. I miss my exercise. It has been so hot that I end up just chilling under the air vents. I am such a lazy slag.
It is all my own frakking fault that my jeans still fit the same way that they have for so long now.
I am thinking oatmeal for brekkie. Who's with me?
Make it a good, on track day, kiddies. I plan to. :D