Thursday, February 24, 2011


I blew it again, last night. Calories were over 2000. Again. I got on the scale, this morning. I am up a pound.

I just want to cry. And binge. And cry, some more.

Allan, I know that this is cut week. If you need to bounce my ass, go ahead. No hard feelings. I am a failure.

I am going to have my coffee and then get on my glider. I don't know... Maybe some exercise will help my attitude.

Or... Maybe I'll eat myself into a coma. At this point, I just don't know.

Actually, I do know. I am not giving up and I am not going to binge.  But I am probably going to cry. lol

Okay, I am going to have my coffee, now.


  1. My thoughts are with you, Erika. You can beat the food demon down again. I KNOW you can. Hugs. :)

  2. No cut week. Relax, we do this for you, not a game.. Fix this !!

  3. My dear one, I know you mentioned that there were emotional issues tied into your eating and weight. Are they coming back now that you've lost a good amount of weight? If so, can you address them as you continue your good path to your goal? Obviously, I'm not psychologist, nor do I have expertise in this sort of thing. But my feeling is that the more "armor" you lose, the more some deep part of you gets scared. Could that be part of it?

    Anyway, I hope you get back on your path to health and happiness. I'd love to see you kick this thing--I care for you so much.

  4. You are NOT a failure! Don't eat those feelings! Sweat them out instead!!

  5. Stop - YOU are not a failure. Your ACTIONS failed...but YOU are still worth it and are a success....I love you. Take my hand....kick the glider's ass...I'll do it with you.

  6. It is a battle. We screw up and start over. Takjes one to know one and I get it. just keep working at it girl.


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