Seriously, I am so sorry about my two post bitch fest and hate party. All I can say is I needed to unload a little and better here than actually spewing my anger and frustration on Husband. I have to work very hard to keep everything on an even keel around here and a screaming match won't do that so...
Anyway, again. I am sorry that you have to read all that bullshit.
My head is down to a Cat 2.5 this morning. I think a good night's sleep helped a little. I am feeling really strong binge urges. I am fighting with my head, my feelings and I want to just make them all go away. I am longing for a good numb out, a small window of time where I don't have to feel. But I can't do that. I can't allow myself to return to using food as a drug. Feeding won't make me feel better. It will only make me feel worse, reinforce my old patterns and pull me off track. Feeding to dull my feelings will only lead me back to darkness, despair, put the weight back on and make me have to do all of this all over, yet again. And I am not willing to go back there.
Shit. Another downer post. I suggest that you skip this shit. Seriously. I can't seem to STFU, right now. lol
It is going to be another warm one. The temp is rising, every now and then I get a breath of a refreshing breeze through my window, then it gets warm, again. I will probably have to fire up the air in a couple of hours. It will be nice when it finally gets cool enough that we don't need to run the air, any longer. Electricity in this state is really, really expensive and running the A/C just during the warmest part of the day can make our electric bill skyrocket.
Great. Now I have that stupid song, Afternoon Delight running through my head... *sigh*
Okay, now that I have once again been a Debbie Downer, I will go toss my sheets in my dryer and then read blogs.