And I really, really want to feed it away.
I want to cry and I don't want to. I want to just numb out and not feel it. But I am not going to. I refuse to give in to the urge to binge. I just need to feel this and get through it. It isn't going to do me harm to feel. In fact, it will be good for me. It is time to start allowing myself to experience negative emotions without the crutch of food based anesthesia.
I am hanging on.
*just breathe, Erika*