I had a good day, today total calories were: 1525. Not too shabby. :D
I had a couple of dicey moments where I was tempted to go off on a feeding frenzy or a binge. Rather than starting to eat my way through the kitchen, I stopped, asked myself what was going on. What was I feeling and why was I feeling the need to damp it down by feeding.
A few things were whirling through my brain. Mostly anxiety about this process. I was awfullizing, telling myself I had so far to go. That I can't do this. That I am not worth it. And I began to feel as if I didn't matter and I might as well numb out.
It's all lies. Because I can do this. I am doing this. I have the tools. And I am using them. And I am worth it. And I do matter. So I really don't have anything to get anxious about.
And, since I don't have anything to get anxious about, I don't have to be upset and I don't need to numb out.
So, I came back in the living room and drank some cold water and went online and looked at hair colour. :D
Cubs won today. :D