Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Thank You

For your responses to my previous post. I appreciate your kindness and caring words so much and am taking them to heart. *hugs*


Well, all said and done, it wasn't too bad a day, food wise. I came in juuuust under the 1500 calorie mark. Squeaked in in my target range. So I can call it a good day. We did go to Willow Lake and walk. I wasn't into it. But I did it. I just set my own pokey pace and sulked all the way out and back. It was good to get out there, I burned off a little of my funk and a few calories, too.

When we got home, I fired up my grill nice and high and let it burn off the grody on the grids while I jumped in the shower. After I was dressed, I brushed down my grids and tossed a couple of pieces of chicken on the grill and then sliced up a summer squash and a zucchini. I was planing to steam them but I decided to grill them, instead. Since I had sliced them fairly thick, I threaded them on skewers, salt and peppered them lightly, sprayed both sides with a little Pam and tossed them on the grill with my chicken. I let them get nice and done and let them get lots of good, grilled colour. When they were done, I slid them off the skewers and onto my plate and sprayed them with a little ICBINBS.

Oh. My . Gosh!

Yum.

Seriously.

The zucchini was really good. The summer squash was just heavenly. Grilling it makes it richer and sweet and it is truly, truly splendidly delicious. If you have never tried grilling zukes and summer squash, please do try it. You might really love it. :D

Oh, and Drazil, I accept your challenge. I am going to try harder not to use harsh and mean self talk, call myself mean things and believe the worst of myself. It isn't going to be easy and it will take time. I have to overcome a lifetime of conditioning. A true, deep seated belief that I am ugly, stupid, weird, not good enough, unworthy and useless. I think that a very small part of me doesn't believe these things. Maybe it can grow? :D

Okay, I think I have been riding the Waaahmbulance long enough. Time to jump off and get over myself. lol

I am going to do my weights, tomorrow. And I may just try for a little extra distance, too. We'll see how the old hips are feeling. If they are a go, then so am I. I'll keep you posted.

8 comments:

  1. Good to hear that you were able to call it a good day.

    Erika, it really is hard to rid oneself of a lifetime of negative conditioning. I am intimately acquainted with the process. It simply cannot be done overnight. Make a mental note when you catch yourself talking yourself down, and remind yourself that it's the OLD voice talking. I'm sure that's what you are already doing, as you've made such great strides in self-understanding.

    It's okay to have a bad day once in a while. The trick is not to let it stick. You are excelling in that already.

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  2. Gosh, you sound like me. I am not too fond of myself either. A lifetime of taking every negative and nasty thing ever said to me to heart and long ago learning to believe that if it was said to me, it must be so. Bondage. Serious.

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  3. Not sure if this is news to you, but as a trained chef and all, the grilling of the veggies is the best road. The intense direct heat burns a little of the sugars in the veggies, caramelizing (sic) them. Sweet is good, natural sweet is better. As for the negatives, in the 1500's, you and I would be Gods !! Love yourself, and get healthy with us !!

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  4. Good for you to keep plugging along even on days when you don't feel like it. Those are the days that can make or break a person!

    She's right about the negative self talk. Sadly, that garbage is mostly left over from things other people have judged us by, not our true selves as we know us. It's like voices in our head. I have a mantra for when that trash starts repeating in my head. It doesn't have to be anything deep - just something to get your brain busy doing something else.

    Today's going to be a better day!

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  5. Good going. I am going to try the grilled veggies tonight. I am grilling myself a steak and my husband some lamb so I will grill veggies with it. Thanks..

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  6. I love grilled zukes! Glad to see you are moving on and back to the positive side.

    I think you've inspired me to grill something today.

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  7. This was such a great positive post. YAY for your good work today! You made it sound like no big deal, but EVERY day that you choose to make good decisions against what you feel like doing is a FANTASTIC SUCCESS! You should be proud. Oh, and that meal sounds divine! It's been ages since we grilled.

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  8. YAY! I shall watch you like a hawk. LOL Seriously if the internal self-talk starts you literally tell it to shup up - out loud if you have to. I've done that before. The first step is even realizing you're doing it. You have to find a new record to play in your head....cuz it's true.

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